lately i am finding

i am not in a good place right now.

2009-09-06T04:56:21Z

i just need someone to hug me and just say that they understand. even if they don't. i just need someone to say it and make me believe it. i am tired of trying to make people understand. apparently i am not good at communicating my feelings. but who is? i just need someone to acknowledge them, and say YES. IT IS OKAY FOR YOU TO FEEL THIS WAY.

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-07-16T22:06:00

2009-07-17T03:07:39Z

i want to write about how so stress-free i am but i am afraid i will jinx it.

i
actually
probably
just
did

crap.

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-06-02T03:06:00

2009-06-02T08:07:24Z

i am pretty sure that i totalled my car today.
boo.

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-05-06T13:58:00

2009-05-06T19:00:02Z

so i have an 88.95% in my sociology class.
and she is not going to bump me up.
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-04-23T11:40:00

2009-04-23T16:45:46Z

i got rid of a terrible "friend" yesterday. i feel like a giant weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. i'm really happy that i finally got the courage to just stop being so nice to someone who doesn't deserve it.

i'm trying to minimize the things in my life that are negative and the things that are bringing me down. so far it's going good.

my sister and i are actually getting along. how odd.

my love leaves in september to join the navy. what am i going to dooo?

school's almost out. i'm so proud of myself. i have all a's! and one c, but it's in a&p which is my hardest class.
when i was a nursing major i was going to have to take 18 hours next semester! wtc. way too much. since i've changed it i only have to take 16 and if things go as planned there will be a couple semesters where i'll only be taking 12. whoo!

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-04-15T21:01:00

2009-04-16T01:59:48Z

i changed my major to biology! concentration in pre-physical therapy. yay. less stress for me :)

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-04-06T13:45:00

2009-04-06T18:55:15Z

school is winding down! thank god. i am getting more and more pissy with each day. god bless the sweet souls that are in my life.

i'm not feeling too good today.

i also had to examine my urine under a microscope the other day in lab. YIP YIP!

WHY are they calling for snow in april. seriously.

i slept alllll day yesterday, until like 8:00PM. i thought it would be the biggest mistake of my life but it worked out pretty well.

I NEGLECTED TO MENTION

2009-03-24T13:41:20Z

that she also hocks loogies when she showers.
on the shower floor.
and sometimes, they don't go down the drain.
YEAH.

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-03-22T17:51:00

2009-03-22T23:09:45Z

i love that my public speaking class was accelerated! i took my final today.
so, i told my mom that will and i are going to get an apartment together this summer, and she was okay with it. that night. the next day she emails me and is like "we need to talk more about the apartment thing, call me" and she like completely had turned the tables overnight. it was ridiculous! anyways, i am excited. i am so glad that i do not have to live at home this summer. i would be so incredibly annoyed if i had to move back in after having all of this independence.
i am doing a lot better in school. i have an A in A&P II lab! who knew that was possible? i have a C in lecture though. but whatev. that'll be the only C i have, and if things stay the way that they are i will end up with MAYBE only one B. possibly all A's other than the C. so i am excited!
i have been neglecting my scholarship work hours.
we have to have 75 by the end of the semester, and they say you should aim for 37.5 at midterm, and i don't even have 30 yet :O
oh well, now that i don't have public speaking anymore, i should have a ton more time. plus i have just been lazy and been wanting to take naps when i should be going in there.
will goes to MEPS tomorrow. he will find out if he is able to be a navy SEAL even though he had surgery on his knee. he is nervous. i am flipping out.
i can't believe that my first year of college is almost over! it is insane. i loved every minute of it though! i'm glad i decided to stay at the peay. so many people are transferring back here in the fall.
i'm going to take developmental psych this summer. the only guy who taught it this semester is a douche bag apparently, so i'm taking it with a chick this summer. the only thing i'm worried about is taking it every single day for like two hours.
i am so tired of my suite mate. seriously. she is so incredibly fake. it drives me nuts. i have never met anyone who spends THREE HOURS in the bathroom getting ready in the morning. i LoVe NaTuRe AnD JeSuS aNd WoRkInG oUt AnD sTuDyIng but secretly i am vain as fuck and talk about people who i am supposed to be best friends with behind their back and i am the blondest person in the history of blondes, lolzzzz.
she's a bitch.
anywayssssssss :)
life is good.

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-02-17T14:33:00

2009-02-17T20:33:55Z

my valentine's day was like a movie.
ONLY BETTER

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-01-20T12:10:00

2009-01-20T18:10:44Z

lol great job on that whole oath thing mr. obama

oh and

2009-01-13T09:39:22Z

i saw marley & me and bawled my eyes out!

3:30 AM ramble

2009-01-13T09:35:24Z

i'm so glad i am back in the dorms agaiiiiiiiin.
my mom and sister are okay if you do not have to live with them, but when you do..

i'm really tired of doing whats expected of me.
my new years resolution was to not care so much about what people think about me, and what people want from me.
this is really hard for me, i don't know why i have such an issue with it.
like when ben's girlfriend called me the other day, after we got off the phone i started crying
because i have never had any problems with anyone
nothing like that has happened to me before
i hate that she hates me
even if it is because she's retarded and think that the world revolves around her
but today i decided i am over it
she was never in my life
and ben has been a jerk to me ever since he started dating her
so i no longer care
but anyways, back to where i was going with this
i have been going back and forth about getting an apartment with my boyfriend this summer
and i can't make up my mind
because my mom is going to say that i am too young, and throw a hissy fit

i don't really think that college is for me
i mean, it's okay i guess
i can do the work
i just don't enjoy it at all really even the social aspect of it
i still hang out with the same people from high school

i really miss justin foster
he is in the navy now
he came home for a couple weeks over christmas
and now he is in hawaii!!!
and he will be there for the next 3 years
he already has his life together

i wish i could get mine straight
figure out what i want to do
dude all i want more than anything is to just be married and have little kids
HOW GAY IS THAT
it kind of pisses me off

STUPID

2009-01-11T08:40:57Z

i hate girls
especially ones that call me and start screaming at me about how they are going to "beat my fucking ass" if i don't quit talking shit because i am jealous
seriously?
i don't care about you and your boyfriend!!
i have never talked shit about you.
i dated him for two and a half years.
if i wanted him, i would not have broken up with him.
i am not jealous of you.
PS - WE BROKE UP 7 MONTHS AGO

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-01-08T01:56:00

2009-01-08T07:58:42Z

i saw marley and me tonight
and i knew how it'd end pretty much
i still bawled my eyes out

alotlesscoffee @ 2009-01-04T21:10:00

2009-01-05T03:10:57Z

i am so tired of myself and the way i act omg
late new years resolution
beginning now
okay

alotlesscoffee @ 2008-12-26T01:48:00

2008-12-26T08:01:49Z

i have had some very intense conversations with my dad lately. which is really weird because i do not have serious conversations with him EVER. ive come to realize my moms family is severely disfunctional. merry christmas. i have put 800 miles on my car since i got my oil changed which was two weeks ago and i am not even back in tennessee yet. my boyfriend is the sweetest boy in the world. i just want you to know. okay. i got a very gorgeous ring and a necklace for christmas from him! my mom got me socks and the exact pair of sunglasses that i accidentally ran over a few months ago. which was nice, i keep losing all of mine. socks that is. i really wish people would take the time to pick out gifts for meeeeeeeeee, just saying. i hate getting cards for christmas. very impersonal. max got me the warmest gloves i have ever encountered in my life! but the other day i spilled gas on them when i was filling up my car. i am a little scared to wash them. well not really wash, just the drying part scares me. my dad and his wife are on this organic kick and oh my goodness i have never tasted such delicious food in my life. i wish i could afford that stuff. at least my body will look good underground with all of the preservatives i eat unintentionally. i am so glad we have so much time off for break, but it is already going so fast! i don't want to go back to work ever. i have played the wii more than anybody should in their life the past couple days and my arm is actually sore. how gross is that? this is the most retarded entry i think i have ever put in here. my dad built my half sister a dollhouse for christmas! it is so adorable. it has shutters and shingles and siding and everything. i want one haha. i come home tomorrrrrow. i wish life would slow down. i am pretty sure that i HAVE to do better next semester. b's are not going to cut it i don't think. i miss my roommate almost as much as i miss my love. it seems like everybody is going through some weird stuff in their life right now and i have no idea what the hell any of my friends are thinking. they are making strange decisions and i do not have the faintest idea as to why. i am so confused. i wish my sister would stop smoking weed also.

loll

2008-12-18T07:14:43Z

so now that i have way too much free time since we are on break
all i do is play games like amateur surgeon on adultswim.com

not just physically

2008-12-16T00:58:30Z

lately i am bruising way too easily

omg

2008-12-05T23:37:32Z

statistics blows
i am so glad it is overrrr
no more math for kyrsten!

my mother, ladies and gentlemen

2008-11-25T23:54:10Z

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i am thankful for you, always

2008-11-25T22:48:54Z

i need to find roommates for this summer
my mother is ridiculous and my sister is going to get pregnant or od
and i really don't feel like dealing with their crap anymore
i am trying to get a new job, so i can afford to get an apartment with the boyfran
still want to get at least one more roommate because i can't afford $380/mo and then $106/mo for insurance and however much for food, gas, etc.
i'm done christmas shopping and its not even thanksgiving though!
i signed up for classes and i'm taking two online
i don't know how i feel about that yet
hopefully itll be okay
my mom hit a tree the other day because "a deer jumped out in front of her" but i am 99% sure she was drunk
thanksgiving is my favorite holiday
this semester went by so very quickly

PAUL HARVEY

2008-11-13T21:23:44Z

my mom sent me this today.

We tried so hard to make things better for our kids that we made them worse. For my grandchildren, I'd like better.
I'd really like for them to know about hand me down clothes and homemade ice cream and leftover meat loaf sandwiches. I really would.

I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated.
I hope you learn to make your own bed and mow the lawn and wash the car.
And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen.

It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep.

I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in.

I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother/sister. And it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room,but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him.

When you want to see a movie and your little brother/sister wants to tag along, I hope you'll let him/her.
I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely.

On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you don't ask your driver to drop you two blocks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your Mom.

If you want a slingshot, I hope your Dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one.
I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books.

When you learn to use computers, I hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head.

I hope you get teased by your friends when you have your first crush on a boygirl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what ivory soap tastes like.

May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue on a frozen flagpole.

I don't care if you try a beer once, but I hope you don't like it.. And if a friend offers you dope or a joint, I hope you realize he is not your friend.

I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your Grandma/Grandpa and go fishing with your Uncle.

May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays.

I hope your mother punishes you when you throw a baseball through your neighbor's window and that she hugs you and kisses you at Hannukah/Christmas time when you give her a plaster mold of your hand.

These things I wish for you - tough times and disappointment, hard work and happiness. To me, it's the only way to appreciate life.

Written with a pen. Sealed with a kiss. I'm here for you. And if I die before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you.

alotlesscoffee @ 2008-11-10T17:40:00

2008-11-10T23:40:38Z

I WANT TO GET AN APARTMENT THIS SUMMER.

OBAMA RANT

2008-11-05T16:22:04Z

you don't have to read this.

just because a person talks about "change" does not mean that it is a good thing. if you look at the community that he supposedly "organized," which is chicago, it has the HIGHEST homicide rate in the entire country. do you honestly want that kind of change for the entire country? he wants to take guns away, which is complete violation of the second amendment. law-abiding citizens, will do as told -- but what about the criminals? they will not lose any sleep over having an illegal gun in their possession, and what's more than that they will no longer hesitate to kick someone's door in because they know that there is a possibility that the home owner has a gun. he is the ONLY senator, across the board who voted in favor of partial birth abortion. inducing labor, and then killing the baby. that is MURDER, and i do not care how you spin it. some claim that he was unaware of what the term "infanticide" meant and honestly, if you cannot understand that concept you obviously do not need to be our president. even the most liberal news stations know and report that even if he sends all of the troops home, thereby cutting all of the "useless" spending in iraq, he is still nine BILLION dollars short of making all of his "promises" come true. SPENDING MORE MONEY AND INCREASING THE SIZE OF THE GOVERNMENT IS NOT GOING TO HELP THE ECONOMY. that makes absolutely no sense. "redistributing" the wealth of hardworking people and giving it to people on WELFARE who are on welfare because they are LAZY and do not want to work for a living, and just want the government to give them money is a horrible idea. no one will have any pride whatsoever in their work if they are not rewarded, thus creating an even larger population of lazy people who just want to suck from the tit of the government because they are too ignorant to see that the government itself does not make money. the only way that it gets money is by taking it (taxes) from the working people. no one is going to have any drive to work if they are getting just as much as those on welfare are getting and we WILL go into a depression. that is SOCIALISM, which has FAILED in every country it has been instituted in. we will become the next soviet union.
"I don't regret setting bombs. I feel we didn't do enough." -William Ayers, spoke during an interview on September 11th, 2001. “Here’s a guy [William Ayers] who does something despicable when I’m eight years old … I haven’t seen the guy in a year and a half … He and I know each other.” -Barack Obama
this man, the man who feels he did not bomb enough in the 1970's is most likely going to be in charge of education under barack obama. why does obama's age when it happen matter? it HAPPENED. why would anyone in their right mind, who cares about the fate of this country, put someone who BOMBED this country as head of a major department in the federal government? he bombed the PENTAGON.
did you know that he was not even elected to be senator in illinois? he took the true winner to court, and she was disqualified based on technicalities, and that is the only reason he became senator.

i wish that john mccain had done a better job of campaigning. he did a very poor job of letting everyone know what they were getting into by voting for obama, though i don't really know how much that would affect anything because i do not care what anyone says -- so many of the people that voted, voted SOLELY on race. honestly. i have had conversations with so many people who come into my work and they have no idea what obama stands for, and they even say things like, "well it's time for a black man to be president"

"If Obama was a white man, he would not be in this position. And if he was a woman (of any color) he would not be in this position. He happens to be very lucky to be who he is. And the country is caught up in the concept." -Geraldine Ferraro (1984 Democratic Vice Presidential Candidate)

i'm not saying the john mccain would have been an ideal president, but he would most certainly have been the lesser of the two evils, but honestly i don't even know how good that would have been. we have been screwed from the beginning, regardless. there was a riot outside last night. and he WON. they were jumping on cars and singing "welcome to the jungle" and "my president is black" after they found out he won. what would have happened if he didn't?

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